My friend died yesterday. An integral part of our family. Don't roll your eyes at me please, but I'm not ready to talk about it yet. In the past, when I've lost someone, I've found the act of eulogizing them on this blog has been cathartic and helped give me comfort and a sense of closure. I don't want any kind of closure just yet. I want to stay exactly this sad for a while. Anything less would feel wrong.